Sunday, November 11, 2012

Conversation With ego (ego Matrix)


Zombies are symbolic for the ego's in oneself, in which they are dead. This is why you have to shoot them in the head to kill them.
~ A.D. Upchurch 

Who are you?

I see that you want to get straight to the point; however, let me ask you something first. Who are you?

I see what you are trying to do. I will not play your games, so let's just cut to the chase.

Who am I? Hmmmm; let's see. Have you ever looked outside of your window and seen people walking around?

Yes, but It doesn't always happen that way. Usually i'm looking into someone's backyard or something.

Lol! You are so funny sometimes. I did not mean the question to be taken so literally. If I told you who I am--you still would not understand me.

Try me!

My name is Legion. I am your false self.

False self?

You ask too many questions, but yes-- I am Legion as in your false self. I live in your sub-conscious mind. Your bible has spoken of me, but very briefly. It has mentioned of me being what they call the seven deadly sins, but that is such a small idea of what i am.

I see. One of my friends told me that your like the devil in everyone or something.

Hahaha; friends are always so nice. 

Sometimes! Haha

In your 7 deadly sins manual, i am referred to as: Pride, Envy, Sloth, Anger, Greed, Gluttony and Lust. 

Is that all?

No, but those are the basics; titles to your ignorance. However, the reason I am called Legion is because I go beyond that. I exist in your 3 brains: Intellectual brain, Emotional brain and Sexual or Physical brain. What makes it so fun is that I am 3-7 and Legion. I am 3 as in your 3 brains, 7 as in your stupid 7 deadly sins, and Legion as in MANY! I am many because with those 7, I drop down into many sub-categories of those 7.

Let me see if I got this right. You mentioned sub-categories. Let's say that pride can drop down into: Inferiority, Superiority, Shame, etc.

Correct!

Hmmm! So, we can have 100's, 1000's to Millions of these Many in us right? 

Correct again grass-hopper.

Wow! A real life zombie movie.

Haha, if that's what you choose to call it, so be it God.

God? I am no God.

I love it when that happens. I can make you think as I wish you to think, based on your beliefs. You did not even notice that your last response was mine.

..........

Yes, exactly what I thought. My best weapon is you. You have to be sleep, or even partially sleep for me to live. I make you think that my thoughts are yours. All your lusts, anger and so on helps me to also live in your outside world. I keep heariing all of this talk about the Illuminati, Skull and Bones--on and on.

Are you responsible for that?

Another thought of mine. Haha!

Stop!

Hahaha; do you not see that you are feeding me when you get angry or frustrated? I am just as much responsible for these clubs, sects, denominations, corporations just as much as you because I am you. Not I Am You, but I am you. Don't ask me any questions about the I Am, because I know nothing of that. 

Do you have anything to say about the 5 senses. 

Yes, I have an answer for everything. I am also in your 5 senses. 
Let me ask you something.

Sure

Have you ever had an argument with someone, and you just knew you were right?

Yes

Although I already knew the answer to that--asked anyway. That argument was worthless for both of you because the energy that both of you released was given to my God. 

Whaaaaaattt!

Calm down Mr. Righteous haha

Are you telling me that I helped create those corporations that are controlling us as a humanity?

Yes! You and everyone else that knows nothing about me. My slogan is Don't Think! and Attachment (Weapon of Mass Distraction) is my weapon. You help keep me alive with the religions I have created for you. As long as you human animals fight each other, that is more energy for me and for my God which I blindly hide in your religions. One thing that I know as well is that you are a sexual being, and was created physically through sex. I promote sex on a wide scale because I want you to sacrifice your sexual force to me. 

Woahhh!

If you are feeling bothered by this; maybe I should stop.

No, please carry on.

I have created celebrities, entertainment and whatever else for my own amusement to keep you blind of your I AM.
You have created me in the flesh as well as externally the first time you spilled the cup.

What cup?

I used cup as a metaphor for semen. When you spilled the cup, it caused you to become blind which in turn created me.
I understand that you have to spill in order to create, but it doesn't take all that you have in order to create. Haha

That's a bit over the top.

You are responding with much ego; much of me. Your ego shows alot in this conversation, which is your false self, false personality. Let me ask you something: do you consider yourself an individual?

Yes! What kind of question is that.

A proper one. In fact, you are not an individual until you can obtain one personality. How can you be an individual when you are steady acting like everyone else with your ego?

Hmmmm! 

Hmmmm is a great answer, a great answer indeed. 

How can I get rid of you?

Get rid of me... You can't be serious. Getting rid of me is getting rid of yourself. Pushing yourself out of the way. Killing yourself, which suicides are a generic form of that. Why would you want to get rid of me anyway? We have been having so much fun together.

Now that I have an idea of what you are, and what you have done. I realize that I serve the devil when I serve you blindly.

You got it! Put yourself on a cross and die to Amen.

Who is Amen and How do I do that?

Amen is that which is hidden from you by me, but is in front of your face displayed through nature. You also call it your God. Your questions, haha. You are so ignorant to yourself. It will be very painful to die, and I can see that by talking to you; talking to myself. You will face ALOT of suffering doing it. When you do this work--most people will turn against you. Not consciously, but sub-consciously because I do not want to let anyone go. You are one of those special one's of I AM, and that's why I am letting you know this information. I have to--the contract has been signed.

When you say: I do not like this, I do not like that, I feel like this or that; you are usually referring to me. More simply, I am ego. The thing about your I AM is that it is not letting you know what it is. I AM (AMEN) What are you?

Everything that you see is not really there. It is my reality, which you have made your own through your 5 senses. You actually have more senses, but I have not allowed you to see what else there is. I fear Your Capability, Your I AM, Your Greatness, The Source in which you have come. Sacrifice your false emotions and deal with the suffering if you choose--it will not be pleasant, because I still do not want to let you go. I will fight. If you fight back; then, you have chosen to bite my fruit and I win again. Know that you are suffering for a greater cause, or go into silence when I talk to you. Do not resist, because if you resist; then, I win again. Acknowledge what you are feeling, and tell your I AM that you do not want what you are feeling, and then it will go away. Even though I am telling you all of this--you still will not win.



Why?

Because I will not let you. If we cannot get you with one of us, we will attack you like external gangsters. Go Back To Sleep!




Not meant to be scary, only informative. The ego Loves To Get Attached To Things. It's In Our Intellectual Centers, Emotional Centers, Sexual Centers etc.. It Has To Constantly Be Entertained; Even Following Us Into The Dream World.

The Entertainment Part Of It Would Go Something Like This:
Stacy: Did you hear about what happened with Kobe Bryant?
Lisa: Yeah, I knew he was a dog when he first cheated.
Stacy: She about to get a bunch of money too; that's what he gets.
Lisa: I agree Stacy: Ohhhhhh, how about that new Keeping Up With The Kardashians App.
Lisa: Girllll, you late; downloaded it the other day.
Stacy: Damm! I gotta get me one of those phone's that could do that.
Lisa: Lol! Broke Ass! Stacy: Whatever *itch Lol!
Lisa: Did you know: Justin Bieber and Jaden Smith are gearing up to debut a special New Year's single on "Dick Clark's New Year's Rockin' Eve With Ryan Seacrest 2012" on Saturday night.
Stacy: Whaaaaatttt!
Lisa: Yup! Red carpet dot com girl; found out today.
Stacy: You be up on all that.
Lisa: Got to Stacy: Are you going to church on Sunday?
Lisa: Yeah, of course. You know I love my Jesus.
Stacy: Me too

These two young females know nothing of the ego, (inner enemy) and if you try to kick some "knowledge to them," you might get blown off. It's the same thing as being possessed.
The ego robs us of our energy, in order to think. It strives to dominate us, enslaves us, and feeds our energies into the exterior world, and we wonder why the exterior world has been so corrupted. The basic reason is that we have created it to be this way, with the feeding of the ego, which is opposed to Real Love. It's 2012 now, and we have been informed of these creatures.

King James 2000 Bible (©2003)
Mark 5:9
And he asked him, What is your name? And he answered, saying, My name is Legion: for we are many.

To Be Continued!

QC
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Continued

(whispers) I'm bored, let's talk again shall we?

I was having a nice dream, what is it?

Cocky aren't we?... also your still dreaming.

Sorry about that. I just don't like to be woken up; it makes me angry.

Correction: It makes me angry, not You, and plus your still sleeping.

By the way, who are you again?

Hahahahahahaha! I love it when the will is not used; they tend to forget.

Huh?

I am your false self, ego, but you can call me Legion.

Ohhhhhhh yeah; right. What did you mean when you mentioned the thing about the will?

Let me ask you something first: "who told you that you had free will?"

It's a common thing; everyone says it. 

I am aware of this, but how can one have free will if their choices, lifestyles, food choice, thoughts etc have been manufactured?

What are you saying? Please make it easy for me. 

Let's say that I am your mother and father, which is not far fetched from the truth. I tell you something as a kid, and you believed what I told you from then on, up to adulthood, with no doubts of me ever being wrong. Someone walks up to you and says: "hey, your mom and dad are full of it, why would they tell you such a thing?" You start to have doubts of what I told you as a child, and at this moment you notice something. You notice you're thinking for yourself. You were not born with will; not of your own making anyway. However, you were born free (by right) but I made you a slave. So it really comes down to you having to free the will. The will is only a tool, which is apart of your dna. 

Bizarre! 

My favorite word. 

You mentioned being my mother and father as an example, but you said that's not far fetched from the truth. What did you mean?

You count on me for: protection, survival, food, personality and much more. Isn't it not written in your law?

What law is that? 

This is something you must search for on your own. 

How can I trust you when there is so much dis-information everywhere?

You Can't!

Oh Lord!

Hahaha! What difference does it make? Your talking to yourself anyway. No one else can hear me, see me, or even sense me but you. If you cannot trust yourself; then, you do not have anything.

But you are not me.

Correct, but I am a part of you. Haven't we already talked about this.

Yes, i remember now.

Question: What do you think of when you see the word ment?

Not sure, but if you put an al at the end, you will have the word mental. 

Good Job! I agree; however, if mental is directed towards the brain, what do you think ment means?

It should mean close to the same thing.

Great! Ment means mind. When you have this kind of truth, it helps you along the path. When you have your own business, you often have to put money into the business in order to make more money. Same thing with knowledge; you use the knowledge you have to find more knowledge. Don't just stay where you are, because that will slow you down and stop you from progressing to the egg. 

I'm not even going to ask.

Good! So I assume that you got it.

Yes! It seemed so direct using what I already knew about.

Good! Back to the word ment. Ment means mind, so we now think of the words: judgement, testament, accomplishment, acknowledgement, adjustment and so on. 

Very interesting.

I am going to mention one last thing to you and then I must do a semi disappearing act. 

Okay!

This is taking it back to the word judgement. Alot of people like to say this or that person pissed me off, which is a "statement" I want to go with right now. This statement is a ficticious one, because your I AM or God does not see this as being the case. Your I AM or God see's it like how you see a "schizophrenic," and how they talk to themselves or extensions. Your arguing with someone, but your God see's you by yourself hollering and screaming at yourself. That other person do not really exist; however, they are a figmant of your imagination. You are truly responsible for your own actions, even if I have convinced you to do so. Hahaha, you can't blame it on me either. I am only responsible for holding back the un-pure from making it to the egg. Your God wants the best of the best to return, but reborn through the source, becoming your own salvation. Salvation is not appreciated when it is freely given, but is truly appreciated when one has done all of the self work to obtain it. Praying for a paycheck does not give you a paycheck at the end of the week or bi-weekly. You have to go out there and actually work in order to earn your paycheck. If you don't work for your own salvation, you'll find yourself working for mine.

............

I'm Awake Now!


Shhhhh! Only from the astral realm.
    

Any Friends and Let Me Punish Myself (Poems)


Any Friends

The impatient lowers their child opposed to raise
Repeating how the parents were brought up on display
Times are changing now these days in many ways
Crying children with no one to talk to misleaded
Fussing parents at dinner tables JUST EAT IT!!
Joining gangs to fill that emptiness you feel inside
Reflecting your inner confusion the hard way we ride
Having a child when your a child yourself we see
That your trying to raise yourself in the process of frustration your me
Successful kids when the parents stepped out of their way
Hitting our child teaches them to hit other people we see today
We show our love by watching what we say and lowering our hands
If we treat people like how we treat our kids, would we have Any Friends

A.D. Upchurch

Let Me Punish Myself

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!You pissed me off and now Iʼm stressed out
Depressed dis-eased Iʼm feeling coming about
Negative energy flowing through my bones
Ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!! I will not condone
I want to be happy but you pushed my buttons again
Iʼm sick of this so tired forget self discipline
A war inside me I feel it and yet I feel secure
My only action with no cure for sureThis is temporary Iʼm mad at you
Get out of here out of my life
No girlfriend no boyfriend no husband no wife
No family cause nothing else exist
I am anger and I am pissedKnock a glass off the shelf
Ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! Let Me Punish Myself

One can only push the buttons of a robot ~ A.D Upchurch

Anger


Anger is an acid that can do more harm to the vessel in which it is stored than to anything on which it is poured. 
~ Mark Twain 

Anger is so much of a well known possessive, worldly, blinding false emotion which has no value but itself. We have been so familiar with this emotion since the beggining of our yesterday, but what has it truly done for us?... Sure, it has scared off a few people, perhaps gotten us to places in life that we may find beneficial, but was it a true success? Anger does not care about anyone or anything but sustaning itself via human energy. Yes, anger is a theif in the night, looking for more energy to steal; making our present moments turn into a misery.

No one matters in these times when anger is present: boyfriend, girlfriend, family, etcetera, no one matters to anger.

We tell our loved one that we love them, but when anger takes over; love goes out the window because anger does not know how to love. Anger is not who I am and neither it is who you are.

We were not born with anger, but rather it is a coping device that society gives us later on in our youth, which is usual. I mentioned earlier that anger has no value but itself, which is true; however, it can be turned around to work in our favor. To make anger work in our favor takes a great deal of conscious sacrifice. Let's say someone says something to you, which tempted you to relate the message to an angry feeling. Do you see it?... Do you see that feeling creeping to the surface?... We must see this feeling so that we can see what needs to be worked on. You are reality while everyone else is just an extention of you, reflecting you back to yourself, reflecting me back to myself.

While reading this note, you may be thinking, feeling or more simply absorbing another part of yourself you may not have known was there. What you may be thinking or feeling have always been there, but through this note filled with words helped us to travel further within.  

To Be Continued...

A Talk With The Master


Student: Master, what is today's topic?

Master: What has brought you to me is the thirst for knowledge, so shall we make our topic about knowledge?

Student: Okay

Master: Saying okay is always an interesting answer. 

Student: May I ask why?

Master: Because it reveals if the participant is thinking or not thinking, based on what was said.

Student: Do you think I am thinking?

Master: Yes, and you are very anxious to know something. Please humble yourself, so you can get the most out of what I am going to tell you. With knowledge comes a great responsibility. A responsibility that can be used to change the world for the better, or the total opposite, but it first starts with you. What are you feeding with this knowledge? What do you hope to gain from it? Perhaps freedom, but are you feeding something that is against you, or are you feeding your soul?

Student: I would hope my soul.

Master: What have you been doing with your information?

Student: Finding my creativity.

Master: Ahhhhh! What an answer.

Student: : )

Master: I once had a student. He came to me just like you: nowhere to go, nor knowing where to go, with a look on his face as if he's been to hell and back. He was my student for about 3 years, but I should have seen something coming.

Student: What was that master?

Master: He hung himself.

Student: Wow!

Master: Not in the simple way you are thinking, but in another way. The way of a painting.

Student: A painting master?

Master: 1,000 Words. Let me paint it for you. I have taught him much, but at the same time very little. One day he ran away to a place far away.

One thing I have not taught him about was the ego, which would have taken another 3 years to do. He found men that could help him build an empire. For years I asked myself: "How could he build an empire with only 3 years of information?"

He told many people that he was their King, sent by a diety named Jinn. The people were taught prior that Jinn were good angels sent to help humanity. The people didn't know the other side to that, because they could not read. If they could have read, they would not have read, because they were use to orders.

Student. I could never let people follow me.

Master: Why not?

Student: Because I would make them leaders.

Master: But wouldn't that imply them becoming followers first?

Student: Good Point!

Master:   : )
Well, he also told them that he was the son of Jinn. Showed them many tricks to prove this to them.

Student: Master, were you ever going to teach him about the ego?

Master: Yes, until he ran away.

Student: I bet all of that ego boasting made him feel real good.

Master: Not only him, but his followers too. They loved the outside surrender to him, but inside they did as they pleased. It made them feel very special--knowing to go through him in order to touch their own noses.

Student: Hahahahaha!

Master: Yes, very amusing but very sad. Let me ask you something. Could you ever do anything like that?

Student: To say I am the son of Jinn, do miracles to prove it, build an empire would make me feel like a madman...very egoic. I would help the people to find their own way, by telling them to tap into their own power, but not without showing them how.

Master: I love your answer.

Student: Thank you master. I was just being honest.

Master: I know. Let's say that you did have a chance to do that. Then, centuries later a person comes along and gets a hold of your work. Now there would be much power in that work, but the wrong person gets a hold of it, like my past student per-say. Comes along and makes it suitable for his own purposes. Rule nations with your words, instead of using it to benefit humanity. Let's also say that you could not do anything about it because the people are not asking for help from you, nor do not know that they are deceived.

Student: I don't know how I would feel because I am not at that point.

Master: I agree.
I shall reveal something to you. 

I was your father in a past lifetime, and you were my student that ran away. These past 3 years I have taught you about ego, so that you may have a better life next lifetime. Now I Suffer My Karma Along With You!


The student wakes up from his dream in Shock! Sweating like a piece of ice in the hot sun. His mother and father runs into his room, but they cannot tell what is wrong with him, besides the shock and sweating. He cannot talk because he was born mute, deaf and his parents moves him around with a wheelchair, which has 1,000 words written on the back of it. The kid is only 4 years old, and the master is now his mother with the same memories of the past.

The moral of this story is that knowledge is like a spiritual credit card. Either your in debt, or you have credit--depending on how you used that knowledge. Please use your knowledge wisely.


Will Power


“You are the only person on earth who can use your ability.”
 ~ Zig Ziglar

What is will power? We are told that will power is self-control: the trait of resolutely controlling your own behavior, or will power is the self discipline to sacrifice a short term good to gain a long term good. People have also said that we are the Will. Whatever your definition of Will--hopefully it works for you, but please note that Will is a tool, rather than what we are. We are told in scripture that we have free-will. How can we have free-will when we are constantly being bombarded with how to act, how to dress and how to think etcetera in this worldly world?... We were born free, but somehow we lost our freedom when we became indoctrinated by this worldly world. Free-will then became a matter of freeing the will. 

"Push your feelings aside for a minute
and do what you have to do,
since you have to do it anyway.
Otherwise, precious moments are being
wasted on your own internal oppressors."

Doubt, Worries, Laziness, Stress, Frustration, Troubles, Anger, Fears etc.http://www.zazzle.com/internal_oppressors_shirt-235649297403900729

Internal Oppressors: As the quote states, following the words at the bottom of it are slave masters, but inside of ourselves, or internal oppressors as the quote states. 

If you are feeling these feelings or different ones that are causing you suffering, please do not try to avoid them. Trying to avoid them or reacting to them will just make them bigger. Notice them, observe them and know that the feelings are not you (you weren't born with these feelings) and overtime they Will lose power. Know that you will constantly be tested, because that's what Lucifer does; test our process. 

We build a house, but it takes tools to build that house. We don't go into a hardware store and just take a tool and walk out with it, which would be against the law. We have to spend money (Spirit) in order to buy that or those tools. I have previously mentioned the Will being a tool, but the money in this case would be spirit. We go through different situations and negative feelings may occur, but we start to have less reaction to them and spirit starts to build up. We then take that spirit, or money in it's parable and apply for a lay-away plan to buy the best dog gone Will tool out there. Every spirit dollar you put towards the Will tool, your able to use from the Will tool; obviously different rules apply to the spirit
world. : )

We have been mis-educated through growing up for a reason. That reason may be because our spiritual father and mother wanted us to leave the nest, in order for us to see what they went through, to be in the position that they are in. 

Free The Will

Parables

If the Prodigal Son's a parable, and if Adam and Eve are metaphors, then maybe God is just figure of speech.

~ Dan Barker



Parables are everywhere. We eat, sleep, live lives rich in parables to the extreme that truth is often ignored. Someone was killed today, but I must ask: "Can the ego, or an ego die?" If we look at the earth and consider it a living organism; then, we can be looked at as ego's within it--in it's parable, ego's within the human being. In popular scriptures it states that we have these entities within our psyche, and some scriptures call them demons, devils or what some of us like to say: "ego." I'm pretty sure that all of here have seen or heard of zombie movies. We see these zombies walking around looking for brains to snack on. In it's parable people are walking around, and they look alive to us but they are not. What they are doing is making clones of themselves by trying to get us to argue with them, putting mess on the tv and other media etc. Zombies are also related to the symbolism of vampires, in which they do the exact same thing.

Without the sun, there would be an extreme lack of light and life. The sun does not care what we do or think; it just is. The sun is the light of the world, and from our direct experiences we can use the parable that it dies and resurrects each and everyday. Let me ask you: "Is the sun your sun or my sun?" It doesn't belong to anyone of us; therefore, it must be God's Sun. Those in power are still in power right now because they know these things, while the masses suffer from a lack of knowledge; stuck in boxes full of parables.

Our bodies go to sleep at night or take naps during the day, but being awake and being asleep are even parables. Either we're walking around asleep thinking we're awake, (we've heard of sleep walking) we're awake or we're waking up. With knowing things come great responsibilities, and sub-consciously i'm think most do not want those responsibilities. I'm telling you: "it is much much easier to just stay asleep."

A cemetery or graveyard are just parables. We've heard of a man going around raising the dead, which can be found in popular doctrine. Most may think this man went around putting life into dead bodies, but in the real world; this man was waking folks up.

The body that I have is a Porsche. I drive it every day, going to work and returning home. But dammit, every time I go back home to rest, people always seem to put my car in a casket and start crying. It's only my car and had nothing to do with who or what I am.